Terrified

I was terrified last night!
I listened to gunshots and screams just below my window at 2.00am, i hit the floor,then ran to the bathroom where i couldn’t hear the screams. Those deafening screams of a man about to lose his life – violently. I was terrified.
I thought i should call someone, at 2.00am, i needed comfort. You came to mind, but i could not as the reality is there, we are no more.
I stood about my little house and listened till there was no more noise and i crawled into my bed and nursed myself to sleep.
As i did so, i gained a deeper appreciation for the male species, their strength and courage and calming effect at such times.
I reminded the Lord that i need me one of those for i never felt quite so feminine as i did right then.
My heart eventually stopped pounding and my mind ultimately stopped shocking and my rhythm returned and my eyes shut, opening up my mind to those unpleasant dreams that often always follow at such times.

I heard everything that my neighbours did and i dreamt everything that scared me.
I wished for my father, i wished for my husband, I wished and i prayed and eventually it was morning.