When i think of you now all i feel is love, some time has passed and we have both got hurt but the anger is gone and so is the resentment. There is only love. I see a man who made me wish for a future. In retrospect, it must have been the 1 time in my life that i not only thought of the future, but accepted it and hoped for it. The one time that “till death do us part” was real.
I know this would be strange cos am always a serious thinker and i always tend to project but half the time when i project into the future, it doesn’t come with acceptance. It doesn’t come with cute baby faces and with laughter or with hugs as it did with you. I have always been gifted with the ability to see the “not so pleasurable ” side of being with someone and it always made me scared and i would run.That is not to say that i did not see the negative, i did, it just was not significant.
I suppose such is growth. The ability to be clouded by emotions but still be rational. These are all but memories passing through on their way to the exit sign at the back gate of my heart. I know a time will come when all this will seem very far away and almost like it never happened. I know a time is coming when days will go by without a single thought of you. I await it with trepidation for the loss it will symbolize but with the knowledge that it will also mean victory for a difficult time overcome.
Megs' 