Month: July 2011

I love you so much, and even as I say the words, I realise how small they sound in light of all the troubles that life has brought. Nevertheless, what other way is there to tell someone that he makes your heart smile,that he lights you up on the inside and that you are his. What way is there to let someone know that you are terrified that he may not feel the same and that your feeling will fall and keep falling with no one to catch it.

And so I say I love you with the realisation of my age, my experience, my mistakes and my hurting of you. I love you with my hopes, my dreams, my future and with my mind and body.

You are who I desire, you are the one I hope for, you are the one from whom life will spring forth in me and with any luck, you are my future.

My heart beats faster when I think of your smile, when I think of your hug and when I think of your affectionate touch.

My heart beats faster and in that moment, I text “I love you so much” and hope that you understand that this is what I mean.

1.I am sure that while i may not know what direction my life is meant to take,i dont want to go through it alone and i dont want to keep searching.I just want to be and feel like someones special person and he mine.
2.I do not want to hurt anyone anymore ie break anyones heart
3.I want to get back in touch with my Lord and saviour
4.I want to be happy but not at the expense of someone else.
5.I don’t want to keep making the same mistakes.And I definitely want to get past the mistakes I have made in the past.
6.I get too hot blooded sometimes and I wish my hormones would just calm down and stop trying to get me into trouble.
7.I know what I like and what I dont like and while I am swayable, it only applies if am digging the sway.
8.I am fiercely independent.
9.I am stubborn
10.I have a hard time loosing control.
11.I run away when relationships get very difficult
12.I do not like confrontation and will avoid it at all costs
13.I rarely cry- maybe once or twice a year
14.I believe in myself professionally
15.I rarely become insecure relationshipwise.
16.I am a romantic- I believe in a man finding little ways to show me that he cares.
17.I am definitely not materialistic, do not bother to fancy it up on my behalf, i’d just be as happy eating mutura off the street as I would be eating pork chops in a 5 star restaurant
18.I’d rather go dancing than hiking anyday
19.I’m a sucker for roadtrips though I wish I had more.
20.I love my family to death and if you want in with me, you better love them too.
21.I love babies, I love holding them and playing with them and putting them to bed. I cant wait to have my own.
22.I have a firce belief in the importance of a complete family.
23.I am utterly and completely pro-life. I would never ever take the life of another just for my convenience.
24.I have a mean streak. Especially in relationships and especially if am annoyed.
25.I sometimes lack patience.
26.I dont like to get drunk and do not often drink. My body cannot take it.
27.I have never been number 1 all my life but somehow turned out to be quite intelligent- if I do say so myself.
28.I have few friends and dont see them as often as I would like but I love them to bits.
29.I can be my own worst critic.
30.I love with my whole heart though with age am more guarded about it.
31.I like a man who is in charge, slightly arrogant but gentle all the same.
32.I love it gentle, passionate and fast is over-rated.
33.The key into my pants and to staying in my heart is kissing. You get that right and you wont need to worry about anything.
34.I am very affectionate, very touchy touchy and incredibly silly when am in love.
35.I am comfortable in my own skin and have no great objection to nudity.
36.I am a good cook and getting better partly because I love to cook, especially for someone special.
37.I do not like to be taken advantage of and know when I am.
38.I am quite perceptive and can tell real from fake people.
39.I lecture too much- be warned of reporting to me at work.
40.I rarely get quarrelsome and avoid people who do.
41.I avoid negative people.
42.I am at times shy.
43.I have a fear of being barren. Next to that I fear snakes.
44.People think am sweet when they meet me, am really not.Others also think am snobbish, partly because I have a shy side.
45.I am not afraid of new challenges in life and hence my job hopping.
46.I confess that I may still be a baby and sometimes like to feel taken care of.
47.I have a big ego.
48.Men think I am not submissive.
49.I have strong opinions.
50.I love chocolate, ice cream, mutura, and matoke. Not necessarily in that order.